The Adventures of Squirrel

don't speak

2012-01-17T14:52:00.003-05:00

i think i thought if i left you alone it wouldn't hurt you so much.i think i feel so guilty, and mean, and horrible that talking to you about it would make it worse. for both of us.i know i will always love you, and always feel like a terrible person for not being able to make it work.i miss you horribly, though i still can't be married to you. i dreamed i saw you last night, and told you that my

High and Dry

2010-09-16T10:37:00.002-04:00

is apparently what my blog has been lately. So, let's catch up. I'm moving to Kentucky in two and a half weeks. CRAZY SHIT, Y'ALL.I got a job as a mechanical integrity engineer (who even knew such a job existed?) at a plant in Calvert City. My cousin sent me the job description; I wasn't even looking for a job...but the description hooked me. It's sort of like forensic structural engineering,

Tumbleweeds

2010-04-26T14:54:00.002-04:00

Hmmm...it appears that I have not posted in a while. Sorry bout the tumbleweeds, though I'm pretty sure no one reads this blog anyway. But it's for me, so I guess that isn't important. Maybe I'm apologizing to MYSELF about the tumbleweeds?I've been taking belly dance classes and they rock my face off. Also, I apparently do not suck quite as badly as I thought and don't look spastic in class (

Wherein I Admit to Being a Little Bit Awful

2010-04-06T12:22:00.003-04:00

Friend's Facebook post: "1 man 2 trees 3 nails 4 you"My (internal) response: "Hmm. I really think that three nails wouldn't be enough to hold a human's body weight."Then the brain took off with: either there were way more nails than three, or they were really big diameter...wait...how were they even LONG enough to go through limbs? were they SPIKES? why am I even thinking about this? it's gross.

Movie Star Sugar

2010-03-12T14:17:00.004-05:00

A wonderful old man and his wonderful wife are at home. Their great-niece is arriving soon to spend the day with them. She, and they, are very excited about this. She bursts in the door, blonde curls flying behind her.The old man says, "Get over here and give me some movie star sugar!"The child scampers over to his chair and proffers first her right palm, then the back of her right hand. Next,

Our Upcoming Weekend

2010-02-26T12:54:00.002-05:00

Tonight: chill and relax while finishing painting the bathroom and putting it back together (hamper, towel shelves, etc).Tomorrow, 10 am: House guru comes over to tell us which parts of our house are going to fall in, how badly the flipper dumbass dude sucked, and how many trillions of dollars it will be to fix.Tomorrow, 6:45 pm: I go babysit while Caleb chills out at home (and probably works on

Things The Very Materialistic Side of Me Wants, But Which I Do Not Have.

2010-02-24T11:03:00.002-05:00

Highlights that never fadeA CamaroAnd a Lotus ExigeAnd a 1987 BMW 325 (fully restored of course)To be able to spend freely to decorate my homeSubstantial savings so we can have a kid (something tells me those last two might be mutually exclusive)A beach houseA housekeeper/personal chefA gorgeously landscaped property with a garden and a fenced in backyardA personal trainer (in order to become a

Actual Email From My Mother

2010-02-11T14:48:00.001-05:00

My brother's name is (not his real name) John, and he is 35. Also my mom doesn't do cutesy stuff. That is really all you need to know to find the following email hilarious. (Emphasis mine).apparently we have too many erasures on our crct and are under suspicion. who knows what they're going to do, but let's get real. we have an abundance of eraser addicts. some of the kids i serve will erase 4

I suck, and last week

2010-02-09T09:57:00.003-05:00

Overstuffed, hell, I don't know, I can't remember that far back. Yes. At least once.Spendy. Yes. We went to visit a friend this weekend. Friend just had a baby 8 wks ago and wanted to go shopping. I am the world's worst at not giving in to temptation, so I bought stuff I shouldn't have. (With a credit card! ACK! Because we don't have any money!)Self-care. Ok I guess, except for I've been

Wow

2010-01-21T13:26:00.002-05:00

Maggie's post about her plane ride was interesting. And scary. And enlightening. From now on I will have a scarf with me on a plane. And when I have kids, a Sharpie. For this:"On a side note, when we were kids, my father would travel with a Sharpie so he could write on us if something ever happened. Like being separated, he would write our names on our left palms before we got on a plane."(From

The List

2010-01-21T13:06:00.002-05:00

I made a list of fun stuff/projects I want to do now that I'm out of school. Some of them will have to wait a while due to lack of space, funds, or time...but some of them I'm doing now:-cook (I'm thinking of trying one new recipe every...however often. Maybe once a month?)-learn to paint artistically, or at least attempt it-crochet a sweater that I love-learn to sew-learn to quilt-learn to

Musings on Clutter

2010-01-21T12:53:00.002-05:00

A friend of mine just made her children get rid of all but a few dresses, a couple nightgowns, some books, and ONE stuffed animal. Just a few years ago, I probably would have thought, wow, how cruel. But the last year and a half or so I've been attempting to get more simplicity in our house and in my life, and now that I'm not in school anymore it has become something of a priority. I find the

Mimi

2010-01-14T14:23:00.003-05:00

"And I realized why old people talk to checkout girls for so long. It's because they haven't spoken to anyone else all day." (from Boo)And it makes me sad for my grandmother, Mimi. She was widowed in her thirties with four young children, and she never remarried. I think she would have, once, but one of her daughters made a snide comment

Goals / January project

2010-01-11T13:47:00.002-05:00

So, now that goals have been stated, my plan is to do a little blog each Monday to check in with myself.For last week, Jan 4-10:Overstuffed: Twice, Wednesday lunch (but I ate very little dinner to make up for it) and Saturday dinner for the work holiday party.Spending: Was God-awful. I had a wake-up call in the form of an NSF fee and a trip to the bank this morning to deposit from

2010

2010-01-11T13:12:00.002-05:00

2009 wasn't AWFUL...but it wasn't amazing either. I continued to suck on the spending too much front, our house had wet walls and some mold.I did, however, graduate with my master's, which STILL feels wonderful. Especially since one of my co-workers is starting school this week and I DON'T HAVE TO. :)So, 2009. It was what it was, and I probably won't miss it that much. Here's to 2010, and a year

The End

2009-12-21T14:43:00.002-05:00

Here is a picture of the first line the last section of my graduate school evaluation:....and it felt so good.

Stoopid Question

2009-12-21T14:32:00.003-05:00

Subaru sends me surveys from time to time. One of the questions on the most recent one:If we could go back and magically remove the All-Wheel-Drive component from your current Subaru and replace it with Front-Wheel-Drive - (additionally you would receive $1,500 cash and your vehicle would get a +2 MPG increase) - would you be happy? No, I would want my AWD back immediately Possibly

Why higher education is going to hell in a handbasket...

2009-08-14T08:53:00.004-04:00

Tuition USED TO BE 867.00, including all fees and such, for one class (which in and of itself is ridiculous)...but now, NOW, it is....wait for it.... 1136.00for one stinking 3 hour class. Fuck that. I am so glad I'll be done in December.

Hideously Charming

2009-04-28T11:41:00.002-04:00

Everyone should have a squirrel lamp:squirrel lampYou could terrorize small children by turning it on suddenly in the middle of the night!The author of this site does NOT condone terrorizing small children.

Rut

2009-04-28T11:06:00.000-04:00

I'm in a food rut. I need to find new (moderately priced) restaurants and try them instead of going to the same places all the time.Ideas? I'm in Atlanta and will eat pretty much anything except olives and Taco Bell.

Other Blog

2009-04-21T11:11:00.000-04:00

Also, check out my new-ish blog:www.engineerwoman.blogspot.com

The Squarrel is Angry

2009-04-21T11:00:00.001-04:00

What the $%*& is this???SQUIRREL MEAT??"...Just add some water to our (exclusive) dehydrated squirrel, let it sit overnight and, next day, sit down to a delicious, non-gamy rehydrated squirrel. These little beauties are raised on a certified organic farm in Tennessee, are carefully eviscerated and skinned (choose from bone-in, the more expensive bone-out, or from the

CONFESSION

2008-11-17T10:52:00.002-05:00

I bought a pair of leggings. So I didn't last a whole year without buying any clothes.HOWEVER, it was a lot less than I'd have bought otherwise (usually averaged 3-5 pieces of clothing per trip before) and it allowed me to make an entire winter outfit out of a summer dress. So I'm forgiving myself, and continuing to not buy clothes till next August.Also, I thought about and wanted brown leggings

work

2008-10-16T15:31:00.003-04:00

i NEVER blog about work. but there is always an exception. and i am so frustrated right now i want to blow something up. something being software.ladies and gentlemen, PLS-TOWER SUCKS BIG FAT HAIRY SWEATY UNWASHED BALLS.if any of you PLS engineers are listening (IF the last one of you who actually updated any damned thing about that shitty-ass software is even still alive, cause IT DOESN'T APPEAR

moving and stuff

2008-09-15T15:57:00.002-04:00

we moved on september 6th. my family came up to help (well, most of my family--brother, sister in law, their two kids, mom and daddy. and of course, caleb. his family had to go to a funeral in BF alabama that weekend).i'm still not sure how i crammed THAT much stuff in my apartment. the HOUSE is pretty full, and even though mom and daddy brought some stuff from carrollton, they didn't bring much.

giddy

2008-08-20T18:08:00.003-04:00

and married! hee hee.sunday (august 10) night, caleb got a text from his best friend's girlfriend. it asked if we wanted to elope with them the next weekend. he relayed the message. i laughed, thought for a minute, and said, SURE!he was (naturally) a bit taken aback, as i'd been discussing having an actual wedding and we'd pretty much decided it'd be next fall. i explained that after attending

oh my lord

2008-08-14T09:24:00.001-04:00

i knew michael jackson's nose was bad, but now it's HIDEOUS. much, much worse than i remembered.

hmm

2008-08-14T09:12:00.000-04:00

i always thought julia child was hiding something...

tall tale

2008-08-13T19:23:00.002-04:00

so i was assigned to write a tall tale in seventh grade...and had forgotten all about it till i came across it just now: "H.D."One day, as I was sitting in my room, I heard the strangest, most nerve-wracking noise I had ever heard. I peeked out my door. The hair began to rise on the back of my neck. Goosebumps covered my body. There, at the top of the stairs,

for god (or, you know, whoever) and the world to see

2008-08-05T15:08:00.003-04:00

i read the simple dollar today, and decided that my "gazingus pin" is clothes...i splurge on clothes WAY more often than i should, and it's not good. i wondered exactly how much, so here goes...the rationale behind the splurges usually goes something like this: "my work clothes are old...and unfashionable...and my office is pretty trendy...and you never know when you will or won't find stuff that

cross purposes

2008-08-04T13:59:00.006-04:00

so i've been looking for a house for almost a year. the saga so far:found a short sale. it was a little more than i wanted to pay for a house (180k), but i put in an offer anyway since i had 2 guaranteed roommates for a year. waited FOUR MONTHS for bank to approve it, seller went bankrupt before short sale approved. (in retrospect, thank god. that price was a bit too high).found a brick ranch

Quote

2008-07-29T11:28:00.000-04:00

"What would you attempt to doif you knew you would not fail?"(unknown)

not the only one

2008-07-24T13:04:00.003-04:00

who thinks that regular, expected parental handouts are cheesy...When Should Parents Stop Paying the Rent?note: this doesn't apply to people who LIVE with their parents and help out, and are doing so to get on their feet financially and whatnot. it's completely different to expect your parents to pay for your shopping sprees or rent for a(n) (much fancier than you could or would afford alone)

Financial Frustrations

2008-07-24T11:04:00.002-04:00

I've been using Mint.com for almost a year, and it's been great--UNTIL today, when I noticed that nearly ALL of my transactions from when I began using it (last October) up until recently (April) are duplicated at least once, sometimes twice. Apparently, Mint would download transactions from my Suntrust account, INCLUDING the pending ones that just showed up as Check Card Transaction or ATM

i am the most impatient person i know (aka FRUSTRATION)

2008-07-22T11:45:00.004-04:00

but i'm trying. so hard. and i'm having a really hard time in general. sally's thoughts about self-care versus self-control seem key right now. but oh my lord.if i were practicing self-care, i'd quit school.if i were practicing self-care, i'd find a job at which i like the WORK as well as the people. i'd sleep more.i'd cook more, and get a dishwasher.i'd read more.i'd take time for ME instead of

caleb

2008-07-14T10:38:00.003-04:00

it was my seventh-grade year, and it was cold outside. a few weeks prior, my mom had offhandedly--all too casually offhandedly--mentioned that one of the other teachers at her school had a son and that she thought we should talk. at the time i had rolled my eyes, but even in seventh grade, i took relationships seriously. i took everything seriously even though i rarely showed it.so anyway. that

yeah, yeah, yeah

2008-06-27T12:41:00.001-04:00

i know. i disappeared.school got the better of me. but i'm going on vacation today, so now i'll REALLY disappear for an ENTIRE WEEK! yay beach!dear god, i need this. a week of sleep. a week of no stress. a week of no homework. a week of sunshine and sand and water and family.leaving today after class (2:30 ish) and not coming back until NEXT saturday.holla.

quickie

2008-06-05T11:19:00.002-04:00

i have a whopping 12.8 hours in my vacation time fund! yay! (backstory: when i started, christmas was a month later and they forced us to use three days of vacation during the week of christmas--THAT I DIDN'T HAVE YET--so i basically started off in the hole. sigh).I. WANT. TO. MOVE. OUT. OF. MY. APARTMENT.y'all remember that class this summer? the one that the prof said would be less work than

drama

2008-05-27T13:19:00.002-04:00

i dislike drama. i dislike drama to the point that sometimes i purposefully avoid any confrontation because of a possibility of drama. i'm working on that (the confrontation avoidal--and realizing that if i stay calm, usually the other person will too).i have concluded, especially lately with repeated examples, that some people are drama factories. their friends and acquaintances constantly get

more on willpower

2008-05-27T11:53:00.002-04:00

i'm feeling somewhat refreshed from my weekend away. my cats aren't grating on my nerves quite so much, and i have some renewed motivation as far as finances and health. school is treading water in my pool of willpower. so right now, i am okay with where i am.this week i plan on starting to clean and pack my apartment, finish my two schoolwork assignments, and resume eating better (this weekend

Goals

2008-05-23T09:33:00.002-04:00

i continually frustrate myself. i WANT to be healthier, i WANT to do better with saving money, and i WANT to have a clean/clutter free apartment.i read an interesting article about willpower recently. i think it might have been on MSN. anyway, it said that people have a limited amount of willpower, and if one uses a lot of willpower for something, there is less leftover for other things. this

oh yeeeaaaahhhh

2008-05-21T17:15:00.002-04:00

the hyatt in savannah (which, coincidentally, was cheaper than our other options, according to my mom) has an indoor pool. rock OUT.my goals for the weekend:sleep. a lot.swim. in the mornings and possibly evenings too.eat good food, and a praline or two from river street sweets. yum yum!!!go to the beach one day. and eat crab shack for dinner that night.um...but i need to pack first, and that

twitterlicious and stuff

2008-05-19T21:19:00.004-04:00

so, i got twitter. i'm not really sure why, but maybe i'll be important someday and people will follow me! ha.going down to savannah this weekend with my mom and sister. i plan to see how much wine i can get my (MORMON) sister to consume...but hopefully not fracture her hand smashing a palmetto bug this year. (and, just in case you wondered, the correct pronunciation of palmetto bug is:

so, where was i?

2008-05-14T12:28:00.003-04:00

so i haven't updated in a while. go figure. life does that sometimes. :/anyway, let's see...relevant info for your reading pleasure:-i chopped off my hair. it's great. i don't eat it accidentally now, or roll it up in the car window. i'll post a pic at some point.-still don't know about the house. seller calls the bank daily, listing agent does too, still nothing. i'm beginning to wonder if i

my awful, no-good, terrible, very bad day

2008-05-06T11:25:00.004-04:00

or two days. whatever.so my grandmother died yesterday at 4:15 am. i didn't go back to sleep. went home last night and helped mom wash sheets/make beds/clean mimi's house a little so family can stay there for the next few days. you will find no details of that here.got home last night around 10:30. crashed. didn't want to wake up this morning. duh. had to come to work for a half day because

In Memory

2008-05-05T08:55:00.001-04:00

My MimiHelen Virginia Braswell FindleyJune 9, 1925 - May 5, 2008

little "B" song

2008-04-29T14:57:00.002-04:00

-----------i got a BB, B, B, B, BEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!in my scary class, oh yes,it's a Bno warning for MEEEEEEEEEEE!B, B, B, B, B, BBB-BUH-Band,i'm going to chop off my hairthis weekennnnnnnnnnnnd----------the end

things that i want

2008-04-16T14:37:00.001-04:00

things that i want--SERIOUSLY want:BALANCE. i want more time for the things i think are truly important--friends, family, reading, re-centering myself, and fun.to be done with school and finally feel like i'm not struggling to catch up with some ideal for myself that i have created in my mind. first, it was finishing college. then i got there and realized that in order to truly have a career that

unloading

2008-04-03T17:07:00.003-04:00

sooo i have a LOT of shit to unload. i've been so amazingly ridiculously insanely busy over the last month, and it's only going to get worse from now till may 1st. (that's when both of my finals are).where to begin.....time: i feel like i have NONE of it with which to do what I want to do. (read, sleep, clean, cook, whatever). even though this is not ENTIRELY true, it pretty much is. i'm in the

part rant, part random

2008-03-26T12:26:00.004-04:00

i just want to move into my house.work is killing me (i'm eating lunch right now).school is also killing me: hw due friday that we just got yesterday, term paper due tuesday that i haven't started because i was catching up on homework during spring break last week, homework due next friday that will take FOREVER and is ridiculous, and i REALLY DISLIKE ONE OF MY CLASSES. and i have a project in

House

2008-03-18T11:59:00.007-04:00

mine mine mine mine mine mine minehee hee hee....everyone be looking for a housewarming party evite in may!The front of my housethe kitchen. with DISHWASHER. and GARBAGE DISPOSAL!standing in living room looking at kitchen and dining room.master bedroom looking at master bathroom doorway.master bathroom, with rain shower!guest bathroom (also with rain shower!)screened porch! yay! (future location

hanging on by a thread

2008-03-12T15:50:00.003-04:00

i cannot wait until next week. it is spring break, and i will only have to work. (and catch up on schoolwork, but at least i won't be SITTING IN CLASS wishing i could leave early to go catch up on the work for that class).something's gotta give. but i don't WANT to give up any part of my life--social, school, or work.i think i just need to stop procrastinating and get some school-related

Uncle Posie

2008-03-05T18:01:00.002-05:00

i dreamed about uncle posie last night. i wonder if he was trying to tell me something?could be because i've been meaning to write about him for a while...maybe he'll show up again tonight. :)

hee hee

2008-03-05T11:29:00.001-05:00

Enter the ICHC online Poker Cats Contest!Enter the ICHC online Poker Cats Contest!Enter the ICHC online Poker Cats Contest!

digging out

2008-02-24T22:58:00.002-05:00

things that are NOT OKAY with me right now:my apartment is DISGUSTING. (well, other people would probably only notice the clutter, but to me it is BAD).i NEED to do laundry.i feel behind on school.i'm stressed about work (more on that later).things i will do this week to fix some stuff:laundry.read my prestressed concrete book and go over all the homeworks.figure out which steel slides for class

irony

2008-02-21T10:54:00.002-05:00

and, as ironic as it might be, happy things from this weekend and this week:my new tires ROCK my face off. i am now semi-awesome at autocross. hee hee. my best time (80 seconds) was only about four seconds higher than the other guy in D stock, who has better tires and more mods than me.i heart my sister and my cousin. they are probably the two people most like me/understanding of me in the world.

cork in the bottle

2008-02-21T10:35:00.002-05:00

i am emo right now. and it is not going away like it should. (seriously, i HATE it. it makes me feel like a girl, and illogical, and i get frustrated, but then when i get frustrated, i cry, and then the cycle repeats itself).school is SERIOUSLY stressing me out. i don't enjoy it anymore. i no longer experience the state of "flow" when i do homework. ("flow" being the state of being totally

i am awesome

2008-02-12T20:35:00.000-05:00

and it smells AMAZING in here.i remembered i had turkey stock leftover from christmas or thanksgiving in my freezer, and i had noodles...so i made turkey noodles. if you've never experienced the joy, i'll have to show you sometime. but don't count on me sharing.and now, i'm roasting garlic. just because i want to. and it smells HEAVENLY.i am exceedingly pleased with myself.oh, and the happy

happy things

2008-02-11T19:16:00.000-05:00

i have decided to attempt to post five things about each day that made me happy. today's were:1) sunshine2) my car3) very little traffic on the way home4) my kitties5) bagels from einstein's in the kitchen at work this morningi think i can even get to ten today...6) GOOD coffee at work7) my plants at work are reviving nicely8) talking to jennifer9) the shower that i'm going to take in a little

OMFG

2008-02-10T15:33:00.000-05:00

so i get home today to find a car in my parking space. so i go up to the concierge to report them and get them towed. the guy asks for my name, the space number in question, type of car, then begins shuffling through all the parking records, looking uncomfortable. i'm all, "that's gotta suck." (the papers were very disorganized)...to which he replies, "they asked us not to tow people."um, WHAT?i

my eyeballs are melting already

2008-02-04T20:01:00.000-05:00

cookie cutter housing is back.this makes me want to become an arsonist.

SPRING FEVER

2008-02-04T19:49:00.000-05:00

is in full force. i listened to dixie chicks tonight on the way home from dinner with mama and daddy with my sunroof open and while singing loudly. WEATHER LIKE THIS MAKES ME A LITTLE CRAZY (in a good way) AND ALSO MAKES ME WANT TO TAKE A ROAD TRIP. right now. RIGHT NOW. i'm just sayin.if i did, i'd go to galveston. and if i got there before sunrise i'd watch the sunrise over the ocean and then

random stuff

2008-02-04T11:19:00.000-05:00

my favorite jeans are dead. they lasted almost four years though, and i wore them at least once a week, if not two or three times. so i would say they were totally worth the 50 or 60 bucks i paid for them, and i will never again complain about how expensive my favorite kind of jeans are, because they are the ONLY ones i've worn consistently since i found them.frisbee and hiking are super fun--and

today

2008-02-01T00:59:00.001-05:00

(well yesterday now)was rough. it got better though.tee hee hee.

blecccchhhhhhh

2008-01-29T15:45:00.000-05:00

reasons why today might not be the best day ever:i feel stupid. i don't remember how to do parabolas and we have to make a mathCAD sheet that will calculate the location of our parabolically draped prestressing strands at 1/20th points on our beams. and at first glance, it looks like there are too many unknowns already, much less after we integrate to get the actual equation. :(i also feel stupid

got on digg

2008-01-28T20:29:00.000-05:00

and now i must compile all my personal favorite "crazy laws", along with the thoughts that immediately sprang into my head after reading these laws:-alabama: it is illegal to wear a fake moustache that causes laughter in church. ("sometime in the past..." thoughts, anyone?)-still alabama: no persons may sell "blow-out nuts".(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...just the term makes me laugh lol).-and one final

ewok

2008-01-28T11:38:00.000-05:00

oh yeah, and ewok has to go to the vet today. she's limping ever so slightly and i can't find anything wrong.hope she doesn't eat me or the vet while she's being examined. :/

weekend, and, of course, other stuff

2008-01-28T11:19:00.000-05:00

still "awaiting assignment" at work. this is getting a little boring. i LIKE having work to do...at work...you know?friday night hung out with shane, phil, and their wonderful doggies. i love jezebel, she's freaking awesome. (i love ajax too, simply because he's a dog, but i seriously CONNECT with jezebel). the time for getting a dog is fast approaching.and maybe a house, too. shane thinks we can

cleaning/personal finance/healthiness

2008-01-26T20:45:00.001-05:00

they're all related. and whatever 'it' is--the gene that prevents procrastination and makes a saver and an exerciser is TOTALLY MISSING IN ME. ok. maybe not totally. but i am struggling.

my dream car(s)

2008-01-26T19:45:00.001-05:00

this car is awesome. two of my favorite things!also, this one would be really helpful on friday afternoons...

more for the lists:

2008-01-23T13:53:00.001-05:00

slow day at work today. i finished everything on my desk and am waiting for more. so i figured i'd post in the lull.things i hate:the word "artfully"when the pattern and extent of baldness makes a person look 15 years older than they actually are, and they already cut their hair to less than a quarter inch, but they won't actually SHAVE it off. just do it. it'll make you look ten years younger, i

2008-01-22T16:42:00.000-05:00

a good reason not to get on myspace at work:you might read the bulletin from your sister saying her dog died and then burst into tears before you can get to a bathroom, and then look like crap for the rest of the day because your eyes are all red and swollen and you can't stop tearing up.tiggy, i love you.

realizations

2008-01-21T20:12:00.000-05:00

...i feel older in my head than i actually am (as far as maturity goes, at least; for the most part i still feel 16--but i'm talking about a whole nother plane of feeling, if you will). i have always felt closer to my sister's age than my own, and typically my friends are either really mature or older than me, or both.my best guy friend and i were discussing it last night, in relation to age gaps

oops

2008-01-18T14:43:00.000-05:00

i accidentally clicked on the msn thing for the detroit auto show...and then, the amount of saliva in my mouth ACTUALLY INCREASED when i looked at the mazda furai concept. seriously, y'all. not actual drool, but if my mouth had been open it would have been.ok. going to read the rest of the article now. be back soon on drool-worthiness (or rants)...also yum, audi r8 diesel...though the black stuff

oh yeah

2008-01-15T23:08:00.000-05:00

it makes me smile when i find out people are reading my blog, even though it will never have finesse and i will never take the time to actually make it relevant to anything other than my own life and brain, and it's really just to calm my thoughts a little.but...hey! hey out there, people! :)

uh oh

2008-01-15T23:04:00.000-05:00

ummmm......not sure if the first few drop-in fitness classes are going to be good...cause i get all, "well if that skinny bitch can do this, then bigod so can i!" and then the next day i can't walk. and i'm afraid that's what happened today. we'll find out in the AM when i either can or can't walk anymore. but! i feel more fit already! (grimace-y smile with gritted teeth)oh well. eventually it

current song that's on repeat

2008-01-15T00:05:00.000-05:00

Bus rideThen i'm across townI take my seatAnd watch the streets go byTraffic lightsThen a left hand turnI'm almost to the street where you live onCan i take you home...to my houseCan i take you home...to my houseNext blockThat is my stopI close my eyes visualize the dayThree stepsTwo knocks on your doorThe doorknob turnsMy stomach burns to sayCan i take you home...to my houseCan i take you home..

and they wonder why...

2008-01-14T14:09:00.000-05:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAserves them right for having decoys in the first place. all it does is make paranoid people in the fast lane slam on their brakes and/or go ten miles UNDER the speed limit and cause wrecks anyway.ARE YOU READING THIS, DOUGLASVILLE, GA, COPS?? BECAUSE YOU SHOULD BE.decoy cop cars = stupiddecoy cop cars with dummies = even stupiderdecoy cop cars whose windows get broken and dummies

grin, et al.

2008-01-13T19:23:00.000-05:00

i had a GREAT weekend. :)we had to go try on bridesmaid dresses for lindsey's wedding...it went ok. she picked one out that we all look decent in.HOWEVER, upon realizing that i am the largest person in that wedding (and NOT BEING OK WITH THAT) i have decided that i am definitely going to start exercising again. if this isn't fate slapping me in the face and being like, "hey! get fit!" i'm not

ode to the fucker who blocked me in at sex, drug, rock 'n' roll, and music trivia tonight:

2008-01-10T23:54:00.000-05:00

oh you...you are a fuckerass wipe.bet you...didn't think i'd make itout ofthat spacesucks for youcause i have great friendswho are determinedand rockit,only took half an hourto get...my happy ass out of thereso what ifmy power steeringis shotand my clutch too(but not really--faked you ooooouuuuuuuuutttttttt) (<-long sustained high note)i winjust on principleand...you get trashfrom the dumpsteron

today, it's raining in my head

2008-01-10T11:09:00.000-05:00

I walk the streets of Japan till I get lostCause it doesn't remind me of anythingWith a graveyard tan carrying a crossCause it doesn't remind me of anythingI like studying faces in a parking lotCause it doesn't remind me of anythingI like driving backwards in the fogCause it doesn't remind me of anythingThe things that I've loved the things that I've lostThe things I've held sacred that I've

my head is gonna explode

2007-12-31T12:42:00.000-05:00

i have come to the conclusion that i THINK TOO MUCH. my head is an incessant whirl of thoughts, coming at me from all angles, and i have no effective way of dealing with it. it has recently become so much turmoil that it's hard to go to sleep. so one of my many goals for this lovely new year is to find some way to quiet the constant chatter in my mind. aikido or yoga or even just exercise...

updates and stuff

2007-12-18T17:25:00.000-05:00

i failed the LEED test. by three freaking points. my 83.5 (or 167/200) wasn't good enough; i needed an 85 (or 170/200). i should have rescheduled the test for january upon realizing that the updated manual is three times as big as the one i last used in 2005 (or i should have taken the test in 2005). sigh. that means i have to pay the $250 test fee. double sigh. however, if and when i take it and

disenchanted lullaby...

2007-12-12T00:03:00.000-05:00

sing me yours i'll sing you mine...rough time in my life right now. i got an e-mail today from a great (understanding, empathetic) friend and just wow. it was comforting at least.rough does not necessarily mean bad. i know all these changes are, for the most part, good and necessary for my growth. i just have had a really hard time adjusting to change since i was a small child, and now is no

dave grohl

2007-12-03T23:38:00.000-05:00

i think i'm going insane...saturday night i dreamed i -met dave grohl-he liked me so much we (me, my mom, and my sister--no, i have NO IDEA why they were in the dream too) got to go on tour with him-somehow they disappeared with the rest of the group and i walked into this random room and it was just dave-he started singing....and then, in my dream, i had sex with dave grohl. it was good. but i

nasal cavities and procrastination

2007-11-29T21:17:00.001-05:00

i think i'm sick AGAIN. my nose is stuffy and my throat feels like hell. debating whether to go get the antibiotics and take some.i'm SUPPOSED to be studying right now; my last test is tomorrow. i have been studying for a couple hours. it's hard to concentrate when you can't breathe. :(anyway. in other news, i'm ok. finally. maybe things could have turned out differently, maybe not...but either

turmoil

2007-11-23T02:39:00.000-05:00

i can't sleep. gah.thoughts spinning and whirling and i'm wondering if i should pay attention to them.

musing

2007-11-21T11:13:00.001-05:00

i am sitting in my not-mine-for-much-longer office. it's almost empty, and there's no lamp. it feels cold and stark and distinctly un-homelike. sigh.i really like the people here and i will miss them. however, i am SUPER excited about the soon-to-be new place, with a MUCH smaller commute and people more diverse and work more diverse also.oh yeah, and i got a white chocolate mocha with THREE shots

more random thoughts from the annals of my brain

2007-11-15T21:54:00.000-05:00

i totally used the line about slot cars today. i.e. "did it smell like slot cars?" (wrinkled nose)**warning** i took nyquil fifteen minutes ago. just so you know, it could possibly get a little crazy soon.i woke up this morning and my nose was funky. as in, it needed blowing, but the stuff that needed blowing was way back in the back and wouldn't come out when i blew it, but constantly "snags,"

pictures from halloween, finally

2007-11-14T18:45:00.001-05:00

be sure and note:bad jewelryleg warmers/leggings/pumps comboeye makeup, specifically blue/purple eye shadow UP TO THE EYEBROWSstrange lopsided grin cause i'm trying not to get hideous pink lipstick on my teethp.s. debbie gibson is neat-o!

this one's gonna be a long one...

2007-11-13T16:30:00.000-05:00

i told my current boss i was leaving friday. it was kind of sad but i think he understood. and (dramatic pause) i was READY. no more crappy commute, no more 30,000 miles a year (or more) on my car, no more spending $300 per month on gas. and i get to design entire structures now (i think i'll be starting with cell phone towers, but hey, we all have to start somewhere right?) also, i might get to

blech

2007-11-05T21:36:00.001-05:00

i have no motivation for anything right now. i'm not sure why. i think it's the typical end-of-semester feeling of just being worn down. i am reminded almost daily of why i was so glad to graduate, why i HATE homework, why i was so burned out from school when i graduated. and i've signed up for at least two more years of this life. ugh. it seriously never ends. (it's a lot like laundry and dishes

test!

2007-11-02T16:21:00.000-04:00

we got our tests back today that we took on wednesday. and....i got an 83!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!there's also an optional retest with no time limit (the reason i usually screw stuff up is time, not stupidity...or maybe that's temporary stupidity?) next friday, but i'm not sure if i want to chance getting a lower score. so i'm not sure what i'll end up doing.

um.

2007-11-02T16:19:00.000-04:00

check this out.not sure i'd ever want to raise a kid without another parent BY CHOICE.i dunno. maybe ask me again if i'm 37 and still single...

a peek into my brain/life

2007-11-01T12:53:00.000-04:00

sometimes i wonder if i will ever find anything meaningful in engineering.waffle house just opened near work. it was tasty today for lunch. i fear it might become a weekly habit...cute pictures of babies make my ovaries hurt...until i remember that after keeping my four week old niece for ONE NIGHT i wanted to die from lack of sleep.trivia/halloween was fun. i was a rockin' debbie gibson, thanks

totally random unorganized thoughts

2007-10-30T08:59:00.000-04:00

i have to make four b's before one c won't get me a warning/probation. (maybe i'm freaking out unnecessarily since i only made one C in college, but still).that would be easier if i were taking more than one or two classes at a time.i could be done in a year if i quit work and got loans.i don't want to be in debt. and i'm not sure i could get enough loans just to pay for my living (read: CAR

school

2007-10-26T11:30:00.000-04:00

oh yeah, forgot to update on the test. so i did not as well as i'd hoped, but that happened to everyone else too and he let us rework the first two problems (ALL of my points lost, pretty much, were on the first one). so i reworked it and got an 83.5. i am happy with that. need a B to not get a warning, as i'm only taking one class and a 2.7 GPA must be maintained.i also kicked ass on a surprise

food. i must be hungry.

2007-10-26T11:23:00.000-04:00

i know why quaker instant "weight control" oatmeal works. because it's so gummy and mushy and non-oatmealy that one can only eat half of it before the urge to puke overcomes the hunger.i wish i had some alfredo's fettucine alfredo right now. maybe i'll try to eat there this weekend.i delivered the check to the roofing guy in athens yesterday. yet another step in a limited number of steps left

i think it's really gone

2007-10-21T22:03:00.000-04:00

it's been a while since i had sunday night depression. in college, it was a regular occurence. usually on sundays (in college) i was just getting back to athens after coming home all weekend and i would be NOT looking forward to the week and missing my family and caleb.i'm proud to say it has been almost a year since i had it, whatever IT was. i'm pretty ok with my life right now. sure, there are

columbus day

2007-10-18T14:24:00.000-04:00

the trip was awesome and relaxing and fun.mountain stuff: